I haven't written on this blog for a while. The last time i wrote on this was the end of last year.
My current thoughts on life are different but are a bit similar.
I have broken my habit of not trusting anyone.
There are three amazing girls i call my best friends, these girls have changed me totally throughout this year. They have literally pushed me out my comfort zone and have given me the confidence to speak my mind, be confident and most importantly they have made me beyond happy to be on earth.
These girls aren't my best friends these girls are my sisters, as cliché as it sounds its true.
I connect with each of them differently. I have finally found people who have similar thoughts as myself.
This year I have forgotten about the people who continued to treat me like dirt, funny thing is I was the only person putting my two cents in some friendships, always trying to organise times to see each of them and when it hit me that i don't need people who act like i'm invisible, my life got so much simpler, one burden is gone.
I have also stopped trying to impress everyone, it only makes my life so much harder. The only person i'm trying to impress is myself and myself only.
Recently though i have experienced this feeling where i don't know what im feeling, words cant describe it properly so bare with me. When i feel this feeling, I feel empty inside my soul and my mind and little things in life that shouldn't matter seem like huge obstacles and i start to doubt myself, my confidence is gone and i start listing all the negative things in my life. It's a soul sucking feeling as i call it.
Whomever is reading this .. My mind is a COMPLEX place, bare with me.
A passage into my simple but complex mind.
