Right now at this moment in
time I am just taking every day as it comes. My view on life has changed, so
grateful for the little and big things in life.
My love for nature, art and
music has grown into more than an obsession.
With music I love the fact
that I can drift into the mind of another just by listening to the story they
are singing, every lyric, every instrument, every emotion, every little breath
the artist takes when they sing. I can't help but love music more and
more everyday.
I have a open eye for art,
I have fallen in love with street art, post impressionism and tribal
art, there is nothing better than expressing emotions in the form of art,
Even if it looks like graffiti.
Each day I continue to be
infatuated by nature, as most of my close friends know my obsession with the
sky, the moon the stars, mother nature ect is Turning into an
addiction, as weird as it seems I can't help but stare into open
space and wonder how amazing nature is. Never in my life did I even
imagine myself becoming the person I am, and becoming sensitive over Nature.
This year I am open to new
adventures, less clubbing and more socialising more physical, and emotional
activities. This year has been a good start conquered my fear of heights, I
jumped off a jetty, which to some people is nothing but in my books that’s a
pretty big damn deal!
I also did a mountain hike
and finished it, which was pretty rad seeing as I am extremely unfit, ha!
I am going to focus on
taking better care of myself, emotionally and physically. I just want to be
surrounded by positive vibes and positive people; I just want to be a positive
person in general.
I also want to learn a
sport, even though skateboarding is considered a sport, I
think I'll just learn it as a
hobby, I've attempted before but hopefully this year ill get the hang
of it.
I don’t know why I had a
fear of travel, but I did in the past. But for some reason with no explanation
I just have the random urge to pack my backpack, grab my camera and travel. But
I want to travel to exotic places, not in the sense of island tropical places
like Thailand, But somewhere with so much culture and ethnicity that I want to
stay there and learn all the cultural norms of the people. I’m thinking
of somewhere like morocco, India, Spain or even Cuba!
When it comes to
Relationships the past couple of years haven’t been smooth sailing, with some
relationships ending on bad notes and relationships slowly losing their spark,
I find myself wondering if I am the cause of all these dying friendships?
Although I try real hard with some people I think my quiet personality scares
people away. To be honest I would rather listen than talk.
Is it so hard to
enjoy the company of another, chill, listen to music, and giggle? We don't have
to have a conversation every minute, we can stare in the distance and just
think, enjoy each other’s company. I saw this quote and I think I posted
it on my Instagram page but it goes ‘ That’s how you know you really trust someone, I think; when you don't have to talk all the time to make sure they still like you or prove that you have interesting stuff to say.’ I couldn't have said it any better, this is what
I feel with some relationships, and it sometimes seems like we
are forcing the friendship.
I often wonder if I'm ever
ready for a relationship, I haven't really connected with anyone
on a personal level, not sure if my shyness is in fact blocking me
from meeting someone but for now, I'm going let everything
fall in place, hoping some mysterious man suddenly stumbles into my life
or if he doesn't, well damn.
I watch some of my friends
pounce on guys and I am in awe of how they seem to jump from guy to guy just
for attention, and this in one night might I add, it often feels like they are
playing tag or some shit like that. They say its just fun but sometimes I can
see through them, although there is no other attention than one from
a fine man, it seems desperate to me. But I don't want to be one
to judge, and my opinion is my own.
I don't ever want anyone to think twice cause of my
opinion, maybe that’s why I keep my opinion to myself. Too scared to hurt
people.
Although people get mad at
me for keeping my emotions to myself, I value some people I'm scared
to hurt their feelings.
Lets going back to taking
care of myself, this year is all about natural beauty, no more straightening my
hair, not to much makeup (only when necessary, don't want to scare
nobody) and going back to my roots letting my little African girl shine,
afro and all! My sisters seem to encourage me to be me, although
they won't know what hit them when I decide to let the little
hippy inside me out, I'll have dreads and all. But I am also so into
fashion and the current trends, it is sometimes difficult to decide what
my style is, for now I'm that classy fashinosta/ alternative hippy!
What a combination!
I have gotten back into
writing, as you can see. Even though I'm not the best at
spelling and literature, I bet you there are loads of errors in everything
I write; I just can't seem to stop typing. I can't seem
to stop writing songs either, if you didn't know, I sing, I’m not the
best, but I'm not that bad. Got to
give myself some credit, remember ‘positive vibes’.
I am afraid of posting my
music; I just post snippets on Instagram and Tumblr. But other than that my
creative side is often hidden.
Today I have spend the day
writing and listening to the sweet voice of Alex Isley, She captures every
emotion with her music, I’m going to leave this post cause it was meant to be a
little paragraph but I could stop typing, woops!
I going end with a quote,
cause I'm all about the positive vibes ya’ll.
“Be
careful what you say. You can say something hurtful in ten seconds and ten
years later the wounds are still there.”
